and it’s going to be quite a while until i post another one. Well that’s not entirely true. I need to get back on this and I will do shortly. So much stuff is happening and I need to record it.
P.S. I’ve put up a new site called See The Web Directory
Well my mum may want to leave the long cold winter nights of England for an Apartment in Cadiz, Spain.
Though I haven’t been to Cadiz myself I have been to Spain. I’ve always enjoyed going abroad and my mates have just recently been to Barcelona as well. They loved it to bits and I can’t blame them, the lucky guys even went to a football game. Anyway Spain would suit my mum down to the ground I think. The main reason for that is what Cadiz has to offer. According to Wikipedia “Cádiz, the oldest existing city in western Europe” which means there are lots of historical attractions. Plus there is a fantastic beach. One of the other good reasons mum should think about a the other cool things about Cadiz is the fact that Apartment in Cadiz is the fact its split in to two area like Hastings is. It has an old town and new town which is great to shake things up a bit.
Anyway I hope my mum finds a place in the sun….but hopefully not too soon!
It’s been a while since I actually wrote some good ol’ honest Addam tell everyone i.e. the world how you doing and stuff. I can honestly say life is pretty fantastic. To some of you this will come as a surprise considering recent events. And no this is not the self pep talk though I must say I needed a kick up the backside yesterday, which my brother kindly executed.
It wasn’t too long ago when things for my family hit an all time low and it is at times like now that reflection and putting things in to context are required. Blurred and slightly confused the big brother shakedown cleared me up and today is a new day.
So in ending to this rather bizarre and ever so short post may I say thanks for the people who contacted me yesterday, you guys and girls are awesome. And lastly to my brother who without doubt is the rock that will never erode.
Right I’ve got a day off, a girl to see and some needs that need attending…..
Thanks again guys!!!!!!!! And David thanks for singing with me!
Well so far today I negotiated a much favourable rate of interest for my current overdraft, got new mobile insurance which is free from Barclays, paid off Mother and Brother some cash, cancelled my Barclay Card and paid off the parking ticket I thought I already paid off.
Even though I’ve paid out all this cash and stuff I feel so much better though I still have two cards that I need to pay off though I’m hoping to get rid on one this month, fingers crossed.
January was a really hard month but showed me how tight things can be and still survive. It’s a lesson I needed after being on party mode for the last few months I’ve been living in Brighton. I need to focus on being as tight as I can. What this really means is budget and distributes money and stick to it the best I can.
In closing; It hurts the pocket but frees the mind.
Like I have said many a time not everything gets put up on this here blog. Some things are meant not to be published and shared. And if shared they are only for the people I have shared with that moment. Anyway I digress but that is my disclaimer, so if your reading my blog and you think I have forgotten to blog something then please take it as a compliment than an attack on my memory banks or how I rate such an occasion. O.k onwards and backwards…
So Christmas eve morning and I have yet to make my way to Hastings. It’s a first and to be truthful a little scary but at the same time not that scary as I was with friends that I have somewhat of a weird relationship. I don’t see them that much when I do I just can’t get enough of them. They are almost like a drug. Anyhow I sorted my stuff out and collected my things ready to leave home also known as Hove (actually) nowadays!
This Christmas was the weirdest one of all. Something wasn’t right. Something suggested to me that all is not well in the Hassan camp. The family was not acting right, or if they were I wasn’t. To be fair it all really stressed me out and I don’t know why. In any case this stress that had entered my life started to control it with headaches and tired moods that I simply cannot describe. I wasn’t depressed but I knew I was unhappy about something. People who were supporting me in this time know I’m not normally like this and to be fair since moving and working in Brighton I have been able to be myself again. Brighter, funnier some even say more sexy hahahaha. Only joking, but I am growing as a person which really excites me and the more experience I gain from doing new things and seeing friends etc the better I feel about myself.
God where was I going with this? Ah yes Christmas. Anyway the Christmas thing was good apart from the health thing. A few days there and I was back in Sunny Hove where the grass is greener but with no family. I say that – I rely on a few people who remain nameless that I rely on to talk to, chat, even hug. Though my family is the rock that will never break…ever!
Right so in summary the Christmas holidays were good in terms of presents and spending time with the people I love. Though I did miss Brighton. It’s not so much the city I love but the people that call it home.
How about buy me an iPod? As I’ve lost mine. I’m a little gutted but not down beyond belief. Anyway look on the bright side I’ll get the 80GB one now instead of the small 60GB….Like I was even close to filling that mother? Anyway I’ve got a post saved somewhere about what has been happening of late so I won’t indulge in the past. Looking to the future I’ve offered to play a very small set at my works Christmas party and to be quite frank I’m scared to hell about it all. Why? Well first I’ll probably be drunk and crap at mixing. The other peeps ripping up the wheels of steel are pretty much pro and sound awesome.
Some much need practice is needed and last night I started to come up with a little set. I was hoping David would be helping out as he’s a pretty good mixer to be fair and having him on board would of been great but he’s been a bit slack on the old tune selection so we decided to just do half hour each.
So it’s me on my own not knowing what I’m doing - let’s just hope I don’t break anything or bleed too many ears. Apologies to all and here’s to a good night!
O.k so after James Bond what did I do? Well I hit Hastings again – Yep you’ve guessed it to see Emma. I know, I know I keep writing about Emma but to be fair I have been seeing her, travelling or working. Anyway I’ll keep this posting short (as I can).
So I hit Hastings straight after work. Thanks to mother I got some bits and pieces together so that I could cook Emma some food as she had been on a twelve-hour shift (I’m laughing at the moment while writing this as I spelt shift without the “f” when I first typed it). Alrighty then, I got picked up went to Emma’s to make some food and decided to go out in to town. Hastings is such a small town but nevertheless it can be o.k. and even good sometimes. It really depends what type of people are out and which friends your are with at the time. The way to I think about it is this; I can have a poor time whether I’m in London, Ibiza, Brighton or Hastings etc. But I only have a great time if I’m with the right people. Anyway the night was good with a trip to a bar and then a club. Once again I was throwing shapes faster than the DJ could pull the sleeve off the records and it wasn’t long before we headed home. Naturally the obligatory meeting Emma’s ex, speaking to a drunk and having an arm-wrestle with a navy seal was had but I’ll keep those stories off the blog. Some people say I expose myself on here and that I am too open. Well I do filter things, I try not to be too specific, but it is about me and I am an open guy. Saying that I’m aware of the term think before you speak…do I use it all the time? Do I hell!
Right so we’ve got Friday summed up let’s talk about Saturday evening. Emma had a little party and basically I got to see her friends, which was great. It’s been a long time since I knew Emma and friends tell you a lot about a person, so with that in mind I would like to say I’m sorry to all of you who regard me as your friend (that went out to about two people – my mum and brother – and they don’t even read my bloody blog!). Where was I? Ah yes the evening of friends and family! Yes family. Emma’s mum came to the party to. She’s a lovely lady and very interesting to talk to. I was always a little scared of Sally when I was first going out with Emma. Now though it’s great. Look forward to seeing her again. My mother also turned up as well! It was great to see her so confidant once again talking to strangers. It took a lot for my mum to drive during the dark and talk to people she never has met before. I am so proud of her doing that. Well done!
Then there was Lisa, Emma’s sister. She’s a funny girl and I mean that in the comedy sense. I do like her and look at her sometimes as a little sister. She is so strong minded and yet so fragile inside. She makes me want to pick her up and tell her everything will be all right even though there is nothing wrong with her. During the evning we kepty winding each other up and it was great fun. Scarily but ever so nice, that evening was the first time our families had properly met socially. From all accounts it went well – and me? Well I hope I made a good impression to not only Emma and her family but also her friends….But c’mon how could I ever fail? (sorry had to add that it would be to soft otherwise!)
Day off, lot’s of rest and Lemsip and I was able to get back to work feeling ten times better than I did on Wednesday. The day flew past with lots of work to be getting on with as usual but I was determined to leave on time due to needing to catch a train back to St. Leonards.
So I got the train and relaxed. I do enjoy getting the train when the surroundings match me demands which are simple; Be quiet, and have enough room to feel like your not imposed upon. Well anyway the journey was fine and getting off St. Leonards Warrior Square in winter reminded me of when I used to commute from Brighton, it was all very nostalgic and touching especially when I knocked on the door of mums place and the heat just gushed out like it used to when I walked home from school. I think this time of year is excellent except for the fading light but I must admit it all makes up for very cosy evening at home or in the pub. I knew I only had a few minutes, as Emma would be picking me up shortly as her shift finished at seven thirty. Mum and I had a nice chat about things and how life is going. She’s still lost I think but there is part of me that thinks she is somewhat enjoying the increased attention that has arisen from all of this. Nevertheless a few minutes past and Emma was calling my mobile to notify me that she had just pulled up and wondered if she should come in and say hi or we just shoot off. I thought it would be nice for Em to come in and quickly say hi as mum has played a hand in this, for which I am very grateful. In addition I don’t think Emma has seen mum in ages and she has changed quite a bit in terms of appearance. A quick hello and goodbye and Emma and I made our way off to Brighton.
Before you knew it we were at home opening the vodka and putting some tunes on while we were getting ready to go out. I do enjoy getting ready to go out. I don’t know why? I think it maybe that I love getting a shower, playing some tunes, and having drinks before heading on out. The excitement of not knowing what could happen or indeed how it will turn out was a major part of why I did enjoying getting ready to go out. I also know it started when I was at University and peaked in my last year as the whole house used to be buzzing.
Ready but not knowing where to go we grabbed a cab in to town. We needed cash so I decided to hit the Natwest near work and jump in to Suga Qube for a quick one. The barman has always been very nice and helpful so when I came in with Emma it was a great pleasure to see him as he accommodated Emma, who I was obviously trying to impress somewhat. I got my pint but Emma got a one off on the spot made up cocktail designed just for her. It was great! He asked her what she liked and so on and eventually after about three taste samples among his staff included he was finally happy to offer Emma her drink. It was gorgeous! It was really nice but he did say he couldn’t do it again as he didn’t write down what ingredients he used. After a quick drink there, bearing in mind time is getting on, we headed down to the seafront where I thought Emma might enjoy some of the clubs. We ended up in the Honey Club where the music I must admit wasn’t too bad. In fact in the small room towards the north of the club they had The Feeling, Artic Monkeys and someone else that I have forgotten playing. So the majority of the night was spent in there until the last half hour or so we went in to the main arena.
Closing time came and we grabbed our things and shot off to get some grub. We went to this chicken place and then grabbed a taxi home where we both pretty much passed out.
The next day I had booked a day off and Emma wasn’t working so there was no need to hurry anywhere though the shock of waking up in the same clothes you went out in is never nice! That may explain how tired or indeed how much we both had to drink the night before. Anyway after the shameful display of being in our ‘going out’ clothes as it were both of us got changed. Emma got changed in to her nightwear as I got changed in to jeans and top to fetch some breakfast, lunch and goodies. Naturally I cam back with flowers, Indian cuisine, cookies and a load of other junk as today was lay in and watch movies day. It was quite late in the day before we started to watch anything, in fact I think it was in the afternoon so only watching one movie was viable as Emma, sadly, had to leave. Her mother Sally had a bit of bad news this week so therefore, as all children should do, she went to make sure she was alright etc. Anyway the afternoon was great, we watched Cars the movie and generally chilled out which was ideal for me as I was heading out again in the evening.
That was pretty much it, Emma headed off home and I started to get ready, slowly, for my next instalment of fun.
So what’s going on with Emma and I? Well I’m hoping things might work out for us. We have spoken about it and that’s it really. I don’t want to go in to too much detail here, but people who know me and of course Emma pretty much can guess I like her…lots. Just have to wait and see what happens and let the chips fall where they may. Most important thing though is that we both have fun and I can say Thursday and Friday was a good laugh.
There is a bug going round work and I just knew I was gonna get it. I really didn’t want it. I mean really didn’t! Though yesterday I started to feel it come along. I know when I have a cold, a bad one that is because when I sneeze or blow the residue if you will on the tissue is green like the glow sticks of the 90’s. So when I was showering and sneezed yesterday morning I knew the time was coming. I went to sleep early last night to try and combat this cold bug. Did that do any good? Did it hell! I was sweating, sore throat, everything. As the girls at work like to say – I’ve got man flu! Well today I contacted Jon to let him know the situation and then I made my way in to Hove center to pickup some essentials including Lemsip Max Strength, Multivitamins, Orange Juice (three cartons of) and a few bits and bobs for food wise. One of the things I think I’ve caught this cold, apart from no real exercise is the lack of multivitamins I take. So I got these one a day tablets that should start to kick in. The other thing I do need to do is to start the gym – yes like many I pay but don’t play. All in all I was a little sorry for myself though seeing a little bit of Hove was good. I will have a little wonder round there maybe on Sunday as I’m going to see the rugby on Saturday. Where is that silver lining? You ask.
Well as my previous post mentioned I had a great time with Emma last weekend and we sort of arranged to meet up this week. The details weren’t clear and I needed to confirm I could have this Friday off so I could either go see her or she’ll come see me. Well it had been a few days – yes you’re right play it cool I hear you say. You’re right I should. I normally do as well. But things are different some times for certain situations – and unlike her Emma didn’t respond to my texts etc. Of course I thought the worse and just imagined that Saturday night was nice but that was it. I wouldn’t be able to blame her considering how we broke up last time but nevertheless I just didn’t think that would be her style. Though I did think “hey leave it now, just forget about it” until I got a text this morning. I quickly phoned Emma up and said hi and we had a good chat about stuff and the reason why it had been hard to contact her. At the end of the conversation it turned out she is going to come over here tomorrow evening, though I am popping back to guide her here as she really doesn’t have a clue and I’m a little worried she will get severely lost! As per usual I hope I’m not counting my chicks before they have hatched but I’m hoping all should go well. She may even stay both nights i.e. Friday as well so all is good in da hood! Here’s hoping.
Right, I’m all out of Lemsip, I’m so lost without it, I know you were right for buying the tissues – (Adopted and ruined from Air Supply) I can’t believe how relevant this tune is (currently playing in the background, maybe I should play this when Emma comes round hahahahaahah - should I be writing this?)
Hmmm, I don’t know what’s happening to me but my body has been all over the place of late. My stomach feels like it’s had butterflies in there forever! Well at least the last few days. I think it may be the coffee that I’ve been drinking of late. Since the move within the office I’ve quadrupled my intake of coffee which was relatively o.k. before.
I could be just in a happy mood? On a natural high if you will? The music I’ve been listening of late has really struck a chord with me. The Feeling, The Killers and Plan B have all rekindled some old tastes I used to have. I do love music, as anyone who knows me would know that, so that might be behind the driving force behind all this feeling.
Hopefully tonight I will be able to have a few beers that might calm me down and then hopefully the night will lead me to a dancing floor so I can bust some shapes out to use up some for this energy I’ve got inside me.