Today has been a really good day and I hope I’m not speaking to soon as the final piece of a very dark time for me may be shipped away on Monday. Though I cannot explain what or who it is, what I can say is that it will be something that I can take a positive from. It’s quite ironic that this thing has happened at a time when waters are not so calm.
It is at these times I reflect on my little life and think what can anyone do to me that I can’t eventually get back on my feet again with the help of my family? I’m not talking about dying, disease etc. I’m talking about the small-minded people that try and have a pop at me sometimes. I’m talking about the people that talk behind my back. I’m talking about the people who lie to my face, on the phone, in an email. I’m talking about the people who do their best to project me as one thing when they don’t know me at all.
If you don’t kill me, I will not break. I have hit bottom once and risen, the point is….I know it can happen again and I know I will come back stronger. So when you see me smile in difficult times, it’s not because it’s easy, ignorant, or simply don’t care. It’s because I have my family’s love and respect though that doesn’t replace personal pride.
